Saturday, March 31, 2007
Well, it was meds and bed by 11:00 P.M. and I am awake at 3:30! Here I sit with my Marlin Cervical Collar attempting to channel this hypomanic episode into something partially productive. Crap.
My stressor was an argument about the selection of clothing and supplies to take with us on our upcoming journey. It was "we won't know unless we ask" versus "the research has been done and here are the facts". Why doesn't anyone listen to me when I know that I am right?
The first and related stressor: A paid mouthpiece, at the direction of the condo folks tried to feed me a bunch of bullshit. I did not appreciate the attempt. I know what I know because I am not stupid. And, I was accused of being condescending.
Condescending? How very rich! I guess when ignorant, arrogant, and incompetent misandrists are confronted with facts they lash out. And, my views about lawyers that prostitute themselves to earn a living despite obvious evidence and black letter law have been confirmed once more.
"Lawyers are the only persons in whom ignorance of the law is not punished." --- Jeremy Bentham (1748 - 1832)
Thursday, March 29, 2007
I am a 6th generation member and a minister in a "Restoration Church". The president of the church is also considered to be a modern-day prophet. From time to time the Church receives messages and counsel which many consider to be divine inspiration given to the Church through the Prophet/President.
President Stephen Veazey presented a "Letter of Counsel" during the Church's World Conference. The following excerpts were particularly meaningful for me:
Generously share the invitation, ministries, and sacraments through which people can encounter the Living Christ who heals and reconciles through redemptive relationships in sacred community. The restoring of persons to healthy or righteous relationships with God, others, themselves, and the earth is at the heart of the purpose of your journey as a people of faith.
Above all else, strive to be faithful to Christ’s vision of the peaceable Kingdom of God on earth. Courageously challenge cultural, political, and religious trends that are contrary to the reconciling and restoring purposes of God. Pursue peace.
There are subtle, yet powerful, influences in the world, some even claiming to represent Christ, that seek to divide people and nations to accomplish their destructive aims. That which seeks to harden one human heart against another by constructing walls of fear and prejudice is not of God. Be especially alert to these influences, lest they divide you or divert you from the mission to which you are called.
God, the Eternal Creator, weeps for the poor, displaced, mistreated, and diseased of the world because of their unnecessary suffering. Such conditions are not God’s will. Open your ears to hear the pleading of mothers and fathers in all nations who desperately seek a future of hope for their children. Do not turn away from them. For in their welfare resides your welfare.The earth, lovingly created as an environment for life to flourish, shudders in distress because creation’s natural and living systems are becoming exhausted from carrying the burden of human greed and conflict. Humankind must awaken from its illusion of independence and unrestrained consumption without lasting consequences.
Let the educational and community development endeavors of the church equip people of all ages to carry the ethics of Christ’s peace into all arenas of life. Prepare new generations of disciples to bring fresh vision to bear on the perplexing problems of poverty, disease, war, and environmental deterioration. Their contributions will be multiplied if their hearts are focused on God’s will for creation.
Scripture is an indispensable witness to the Eternal Source of light and truth, which cannot be fully contained in any finite vessel or language. Scripture has been written and shaped by human authors through experiences of revelation and ongoing inspiration of the Holy Spirit in the midst of time and culture.
Scripture is not to be worshiped or idolized. Only God, the Eternal One of whom scripture testifies, is worthy of worship. God’s nature, as revealed in Jesus Christ and affirmed by the Holy Spirit, provides the ultimate standard by which any portion of scripture should be interpreted and applied.
It is not pleasing to God when any passage of scripture is used to diminish or oppress races, genders, or classes of human beings. Much physical and emotional violence has been done to some of God’s beloved children through the misuse of scripture. The church is called to confess and repent of such attitudes and practices.
Faithful disciples respond to an increasing awareness of the abundant generosity of God by sharing according to the desires of their hearts; not by commandment or constraint. Break free of the shackles of conventional culture that mainly promote self-serving interests. Give generously according to your true capacity. Eternal joy and peace await those who grow in the grace of generosity that flows from compassionate hearts without thought of return. Could it be otherwise in the domain of God, who eternally gives all for the sake of creation?
Collectively and individually, you are loved with an everlasting love that delights in each faithful step taken. God yearns to draw you close so that wounds may be healed, emptiness filled, and hope strengthened..
Monday, March 26, 2007
You are Superman
|You are mild-mannered, good,|
strong and you love to help others.
Click here to take the "Which Superhero am I?" quiz...
Sunday, March 25, 2007
As I continue my "Clean Sweep" and continue to "Clean House" I have come across the baby book that my mother keep for me. She wrote the information as if talking/writing to me. Mom was so detail oriented that I can tell you exactly what gifts, cards, and monies that I received from birth to 10 years old.
She wrote about how in the first months of my life she was afraid that I was blind. She wrote about my wobbly eyes. The doctor's back then didn't seem to know about nystagmus (a congenital or acquired persistent, rapid, involuntary, and oscillatory movement of the eyeball, usually from side to side.) And, it seems that my brain needed a bit of time to adjust to my condition. She told me how happy she was when I finally saw my hands and she knew I could see.
I have a sample of my golden blond hair that she kept from my first haircut. I didn't cry or fuss. Thank you, Uncle Jerry. I have my first lost tooth.
I have a treasure that is priceless. Thank you, Mom!
Happy Mother's Day
Who cleans the house and washes the dishes?
Who cleans the kids and washes the floors?
Who gets the dinner and the supper?
Who is the best person in the world?
Friday, March 23, 2007
I like Barack Obama. I also like John Edwards. In fact, in 2004 I voted for him in the Democratic Primary in Michigan.
And, just maybe the genius that put together the controversial YouTube ad is right!
Thursday, March 22, 2007
The most important issue for me these days is my family. It seems that the older we get the more we want to call one another and just talk about what is going on in our lives. I like that.
I hate to say it, but we seemed to have come together more in the last year of our father's life. Everyone pitched in to help Dad. My nephews, the sons of my favorite sister, were particularly helpful. Their sister helped but was away on an important mission -- completing her university degree. I am so proud of those kids.
My favorite (and only) sister has with my brother-in-law raised 3 terrific kids. When the kids were younger (and even now) they were so polite that they asked permission to get a drink of water from the kitchen. Dad use to drive them around to friends and family not just because he helped my sister with watching them, he loved them and wanted to "show them off".
My recent absence from my blog was due to 2 major "stressors". One was the fifteen days that Budd was away checking out Ajijic, Jalisco, MX. We have not been apart for any extended period of time in the 17 years of our "relationship". The other stressor was the first anniversary of Dad's death. I miss him and I still cry.
Family. If you are not close, if you hold grudges and never talk, and if you lack any amity your life will have a big hole in it. And, I weep for you.
Family. How very blessed we are!
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Wow! Two days of restful sleep and getting back to my reading/blogging routine. I can't write much more because I have exceeded my limit of computing without wearing my cervical collar.......
Fuck the "news" about the Smith paternity, Hollywood couplings, Scooter, the butt hole Limbaugh and Arnold, and the Baptist leader that supports playing God with curing homo fetuses --- Does that not seem hypocritical of the Christianists that don't want science meddling with stem cells, that want to limit women's reproductive freedom, and abort Down's Syndrome fetuses ---
Fuck the stories about fluffy crap that is unimportant and distracting Americans from learning the real news about the Iraqi catastrofuck. Please stop entertaining us and get back to REPORTING the real news.
Fuck Judith Miller, Robert Novak, and every other so-called journalists that are Bushie lap dogs.
Fuck all lawyers that prostitute themselves and render "opinions" that should be made by judges....
Fuck my condo association and its incompetent leaders.
Did I miss any fucking things?
Monday, March 19, 2007
General Peter Pace has no business expressing his personal opinions about what is moral and immoral. He doesn't want gays in the military.
Bill Maher said it best on Friday.........
"At least the gays know when to withdraw from a shit hole."
Sunday, March 18, 2007
I recently read a post from L (it will remain "our secret") that described her insomnia and racing thoughts. I can't pull a Senator/Doctor Frist and make a long distant diagnosis, but considering all I know about L, I suggest some research, a Bipolar Depression checklist, and perhaps a consult with a doctor..........
I have had one helluva month. I couldn't concentrate on anything for any length of time. I had the attention span of a goldfish. Nothing motivated me. Nothing could move me out of the house until Memo (pronounced "may mo") a.k.a. Budd got home from his vacation.
I spent several nights sitting in the dark with my racing thoughts and a little bit of paranoia.
Now, I am recovering from the latest and scariest bout of hypomania (or was it mania?). All I know is that I couldn't even bring myself to watch any news shows or read/work at the computer.... More stuff to tell the doctor...... Another med change may be on the way....
The only good thing that came about was rediscovering how much I had enjoyed rocking in the rocking chair and daydreaming. When my thoughts slowed down, I recalled that sometime in the last 10 years I stopped this "habit" that I had had since childhood. Now that I can daydream without racing thoughts, I'll have to practice it more often.....
Today it is sunny and it looks like Spring has sprung......... It's a new day.
Let's see if we can make these good feelings last.......
Thursday, March 15, 2007
I was stuck
I was stuck between the applause and the rose petals
I was stuck
between the money shot and the fluffer
between the Zig Zag and the smoke
between the euphoria and the friction
between the maniac and the mania
I was stuck
I was stuck between the morning light and the dawn
I was stuck