I recently read a post from L (it will remain "our secret") that described her insomnia and racing thoughts. I can't pull a Senator/Doctor Frist and make a long distant diagnosis, but considering all I know about L, I suggest some research, a Bipolar Depression checklist, and perhaps a consult with a doctor..........
I have had one helluva month. I couldn't concentrate on anything for any length of time. I had the attention span of a goldfish. Nothing motivated me. Nothing could move me out of the house until Memo (pronounced "may mo") a.k.a. Budd got home from his vacation.
I spent several nights sitting in the dark with my racing thoughts and a little bit of paranoia.
Now, I am recovering from the latest and scariest bout of hypomania (or was it mania?). All I know is that I couldn't even bring myself to watch any news shows or read/work at the computer.... More stuff to tell the doctor...... Another med change may be on the way....
The only good thing that came about was rediscovering how much I had enjoyed rocking in the rocking chair and daydreaming. When my thoughts slowed down, I recalled that sometime in the last 10 years I stopped this "habit" that I had had since childhood. Now that I can daydream without racing thoughts, I'll have to practice it more often.....
Today it is sunny and it looks like Spring has sprung......... It's a new day.
Let's see if we can make these good feelings last.......
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