Sunday, November 11, 2007

Bipolar Disorder Sucks

I can deal with a racing mind and insomnia. I can deal with obsessive compulsive actions. Those strange thoughts, however, are just not good.

I've been riding the "high" of hypomania. I can accept the OCD sex. I can accept the OCD computer gaming. It's those really f*&@ed-up thoughts that make me want to run out and get my Lamictal renewed.

I've not been this close to mania in a very long long time. And, I will not be very happy if I am seduced by crazy thinking.

I am not depressed. That's good.

So, for "God Knows" how long, I will be watching myself...

...waiting for the next quick cycle.

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