I can deal with a racing mind and insomnia. I can deal with obsessive compulsive actions. Those strange thoughts, however, are just not good.
I've been riding the "high" of hypomania. I can accept the OCD sex. I can accept the OCD computer gaming. It's those really f*&@ed-up thoughts that make me want to run out and get my Lamictal renewed.
I've not been this close to mania in a very long long time. And, I will not be very happy if I am seduced by crazy thinking.
I am not depressed. That's good.
So, for "God Knows" how long, I will be watching myself...
...waiting for the next quick cycle.